Maafkan la aku kerna terpaksa mendustai janji2 yang pernah ku lafazkan dulu padamu..Aku terpaksa buat demikian kerna kau suda ada peggantiku..Biarla masa silam kita bersama menjadi onak duka di dalam hatiku..Dan janganla kau menghina dan mencari diri ini Kembali kerna aku tidak sanggup disakiti kembali..Pergila kau jauh dari hidupku..Sejujurnya ku suda maafkan semua itu..Kepada keluargamu,maafkan nana kerna menjauhi semua org..I onli want to find myself back n lead a happy life without him around..

pics were taken at marina cum suntec to celebrate mia bdaae..hpe u like e present ya babe..

e update..

its been lyke almost 3 weeks i neva blogged..wat happen to me?lets starts wif skewl stuff..k did badly for my statistics ica..OMG i study very hard for it bt e test was totally different la..As for my nursing assessment i passed wif flying colours,Hw bout biology practical tes?hopefully passed cz i ruined 10questions of it due to my drowsiness..Had flu for the pass few daes..Its been so irritating la..cant slept well due to my running nose presentation..As for hari raya haji dis yr its a bit slack bt isha jz rock my world man..she juz too cute n chubby..Best fren had given birth to a baby gal..so damn cute n chubby..N wats e D.O.B i tink 26november..Her name was Nur Liyanah Allyssya..hmm 4.0kg..so big..congrats babe proud of u..may u hav an everlasting marriage n a hapi family k.. my personal life??lets jz b a secret of mine aite..im still having phobia due to my past life..I juz want tosae dat i had forgiven u for hurting me n for ur mistakes..hpe u r hapi nw wif ur new gf..decided to severe ties wif him n his whole family..let me juz burnt e bridge..im sori i have to do dat..life juz nid to goes on rite..Todae the last dae of skewl so im looking forward for the kl trip wich could help me distress..FRENS luv u guys aite..tanx 4 being dere wif me k..

Today class end at 9..OMG So early..Had meeting wif my groupmates..so stress up wif our ICA..Dis semester the ICA damn hard..Went Home and slept after dat..Thought of going out but too broke end up staying at hme..Ydae msg Popeye n he repli..He'sori for making me feel so complicated..He also said dat he was bz if werk n stress up due to his personal problems..Heard dat he doesnt want me to get the wrong intention..Mcm phm jer..Wateva it is i jz want to make friends rather den goin into r'ships..unless dat person is very serious..cant afford to waste my precious time again..Im bored at home actuali..so end up doin my assignment n watching tv..Acit miz u..I hope u r doin fine aite..Tried to Buzz u for a couple of times bt no response..No matter wat u r still my buddy k..Treasure e 8 yrs of friendship wif u..Isha U RoCk My World wif smile.

What Scorpio sae Bout Me..

My HoRoSCoPe SiGn WaT iT SaE..
You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic “Type A” personality.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signal

Weekend have passed..On friday went to crocs sale at expo wif classmates..So happening..very crowded wif ppl..took several shots wif the belo's posing wif the crocs..I bought a pair of turquiose crocs and had to q up almost 3 hrs to pay..OMG so damn long..Guess wat the next morning wen i woke up im down wif terrible flu and my lips are swollen due to the japanese food dat i ate in school on fri..I jz realised dat im alergic to eel and cant eat seafood..Went to c a doctor wif my family..After dat went home to take a nap n went to e beach..sakit2 masih le kua ehkz..E air was so surut la hw to go swimming lyke dat..Bt sat was the dae im reali pussed off wif sum1..Onli god Noes hw i reali felt dat tyme.I dnt noe whether i shud bust in tears or juz shout out..Let it b My secret aite..Sun wen 4 driving in e morn..I drove like a drunkard due to e side effects of meds dat i took..aiyo..Slept 4 e whle dae..".. I aM WhO i Am So DonT PuT WoRds iN mY MouTh FoR The TinGs i NeVa Do.."..

Hei hei hei..im hre again..I went out wif abi ydae to play pool n bowl..OMG its on him again..tanx aniwae bt i feel tk sedap cey asyik he blanje me..Hmm such a nice guy bt too bad he attached kn..Well we tok bout popeye n i give a thought not to msg n cal him aain..geram sangat ngan dier kn..OMg my bowling sux lor..tk pena break record aku la 1 game 27 points je..so lame la..aniwae had fun goin out wif him..well todae in skewl skip lecture wif mia..mepek kn kiter skip lectures jz to c e hotels for our dae..well kiter kn slalu on..mcm paham..about mYselF??i feel sumting reali lacking in me cey..im trying wats e real cause 4 it..chaoz..WaaCAh Dush..

Hei its earli morning and i stil havent slip.My mind r corrupted.mcm phm jer.actuali jz tink bout myself.wat e hell is reali happening to me nowadays..I appeared to be hapi and cheerful but actuali im totally lost.can sum1 guide my way PLSS..I feel as if im all alone by myself being abandoned.Life is just bored wen no1 dre to pamper u.Being single is juz too fun u can enjoy life n live to the fullest bt deep in it u will feel lonely at tomes..Sumtimes i do jz wonder y GOD put me in lots of obstacles to endured.N guess wat today i get lectured frm a guy i recently noe..wat initiative is he toking about.I jz neva repli his msgs cz i was asleep n too bz..tu pn kene tegur tkder initiative..N he jz assume me to b like oth gals dat he knews..tanx ehkz yus..im not like those bitches outside la..i do treasure friendship so much..Hei popeye whre hav u gone missing?msg tk repli lepas tu nanti ckp org sombong..miz toking to u lor..kmajok nie..haha..im so lame la rite now..tokin craps here..aniwae who cares i jz write wateva i 1..dats me..

Perasaanku

Fajar yangg Menusuk kalbuku
kedingan pagi hari
aku duduk keseorangan di jendela
betemankan butir-butir mutiara
yang mengalir dipipiku mengenangkan kehidupan dalam diri ini

Aku seorang insan biasa
Yang tidak pernah lari dari segala masalah atau dugaan
yang bakal menimpa
tapi aku harus tabah dan kuatkan
semangat untuk melalui pancaroba kehidupan ini
Perasaan dan isi hati ini
tiada siapa yang dapat mengerti dan memahaminya
Aku amat kecewa akan manusia2 di sekelilingingku
Persahabatan yang Ku telah bina lapan tahun lalu
kini musnah akhirnya
orang yang pernah kusanjungi dan hargai mendusta persahabatan ini
bukan sekali malah berkali-kali diulanginya
hati ini bagai terhiris dan terluka akan perbuatannya
tiada siapa yang tahu bagaimana aku rasai
Namun aku tidak pernah kesal akan semua ini
malah aku mengambilnya sebagai pengajaran kehidupan


Ketika aku memerlukan seseorang
untuk berkongsi masalah dan perasaan di hati
mereka tidak ada disampingku
tempat ini lah aku meluahkan segalanya


Adakah diri ini senda gurauan
tempat orang melangkah masok dan pergi
pada bila-bila masa sahaja
datang ketika memerlukan sesuatu
ini semua adala perbuatan manusia

Aku bersyukur pada tuhan
kerna menemukan dengan seorang insan
yang amat kukasihi dan sayangi
dialah yang dapat mengubati hati yang terluka ini
walau kadangkala dirinya sering membuatku
menangis dan kecewa
tidak dapat berada disampingku sepenuh masa

Benar kata orang insan yang sering kali
mengalirkan airmata dipipi ini
adalah insan yang dapat membahagiakan diri ini
NaMun ia hanya tinggal kenangan dan menjadi masa silamku
Semuanya suda berakhir hanya rekaan semata mata

DiS iS WeN u GoT NoTiNg To Do iN SkewL

My SkewL MaTes
Me WiTh BeStie during my bdae
My NieCe iSha
2008..hw can i say bout dis year..its a year which left wif alot of unpleasant memories..This year also had taught me alot of experiences in life such as never judge a book by its cover and lots more..This yr also built up my courage to carry on wif life after a failed relationship which almost ended up with an engagement..Tank God save me from all this hussle of life..Its also a year of struggling to forget sum1 dat u reali luv and promise to built an eternal life with him..Its reali hard for me to go thru al dis by myself..Sadness,crying.heartache and despair almost end me up wif depression..Like Wat ppl sae behind every smile dat i hav dre alwisz a sad part in me..In front of ppl im acting strong bt deep in me onli god knows how it feel..After a few months of struggling and despair,god gave me a beautiful present..A new soul that is brought in my life which is my niece..Although i lost him bt nw im quite glad actuali to have a happy family n a niece..Nur Farisha thats the name i gave her..She brought and occupy my life with laughter and smile although sumtyme she lies to melalak alot..cant stand it..hehe..About myself relationship wise;i leave everything to GOD actuali..E past hav left me with a great phobia to start on with a new relationship..I do admire sum1 actuali bt as u al noe takkan perigi nak gi cari timbakn..As for my school,quite stress up with it lately after been called for a counselling to get a better results for this semester..Will update u guys wen im free..

the vintage me
MuMmy N Me..





This is my makeover sessions at HOA..LuV e PiCs aLoTi luv the eye shadow..